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is it me or did everything seem to pass slower than usual today? ..mm okay maybe its just me. It was scary to suddenly get a glimpse of an emotion in me which i didn't know existed-extreme dejection. Well, i guess it really isn't all that creepy to surprise oneself with a weak and ugly side once in a while, yes?
I think i'm in love. And i like how that feels. And i hate how that feels. Because it feels like commitment. Part of me wants to open up and just let him inside, but the other part of me feels like a bucket overflowing with insecurities. And that begins a tug-of-war inside me. Maybe i should just let it go cause it's starting to make me feel stupid. (insert many dots here) There's so much other things i want to type out but it's all getting stuck on my fingertips. (long pause) I guess i'll just save it for another time.   

..there's school tomorrow. Something to look forward to, i guess?