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2009-11-24T00:13:00.000+08:00

click

2009-11-22T00:01:00.001+08:00

"hi beautiful."<:i missed you a lot, i'm glad you're back.

Jesus

2009-11-20T02:08:00.001+08:00

everytime my mind says give up my heart says look to Him.

✭✭✭✭✭✭✭✭✭✭✭✭✭✭✭✭✭✭✭✭

2009-11-17T19:40:00.005+08:00

adil says he can't wait to see his 20-star girl.

magnitude and direction

2009-11-17T18:16:00.008+08:00

i got tired of feeling scared. it feels like it has been forever since a tomorrow meant something to me.

you

2009-11-15T23:35:00.003+08:00

sunday:im in love.

titanic

2009-11-13T10:43:00.003+08:00

d'you know how seeing you would always kill every single cell of upset in me? and how i'd always cry when i feel like im getting a little closer to losing you. i used to keep everything in my mind where nobody could find or see them, but its funny how i can never keep secrets from you. you'd always seem to know that im not ok when i say i am. and when you make me angry, you'd leave me stuck

i need

2009-11-13T00:05:00.002+08:00

a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on now. :( my heart feels empty. you.

B & P

2009-11-11T23:01:00.002+08:00

on some days, i'd forget to eat. i wish i could survive on an apple a day, then i wouldn't have to forget so much.

in ♥

2009-11-10T22:07:00.004+08:00

yesterday we came out with a to-do list for today but we only managed to do 1.5 out of the 9 listed sigh we can nvr fully stick to doing something but thats ok being able to spend my afternoon together with you was already enough to make me happy <: i am excited for thursday!!! i hope we'd be able to stick to our plan for once.love you big boy♥

2009-11-10T21:12:00.004+08:00

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tilt-a-whirl

2009-11-08T21:08:00.003+08:00

i used to like it when we fight bcos we'd always end up 5 times closer when we make up. but this week we argued a million times, made up a million times but i still dont see us getting anywhere closer to understanding each other more. i feel the space between us expanding and overlapping with so much insecurity, disappointment and confusion. sucks having to end up communicating through drafts

2009-11-06T21:27:00.002+08:00

i started the day feeling like nothing but seeing you sort of made everything better. it gets difficult to keep up with you sometimes though. funny how i let disappointment settle in me so easily when that msg came in. like as if i was already half expecting it. i am sad but i dont want to ruin things further i feel ruined enough already

sharp roads

2009-11-03T13:23:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wish i could read your mind, if that makes it easier to understand you. im at a point where staying semi-sane is already becoming a struggle but what do i do when there is no one but you?

2009-11-01T23:05:00.004+08:00

HUNGRY :

pinned

2009-11-01T22:41:00.000+08:00

what is your everything?

frozen minutes

2009-10-31T21:44:00.004+08:00

i liked how today went. good way to end a month <: its not everyday that you can get to really appreciate the people around you. i liked how we made ham and cheese sandwhiches taste so good with chips heaped up in btween them and how we ended up laughing at ourselves cos of the 3 consecutive times we spilled our styrofoam cups of juices onto the mat. we got sun kissed just by sitting in the sun

peeled

2009-10-28T16:56:00.004+08:00

what do you make of me?

2009-10-28T16:54:00.000+08:00

ha ha

BACK 4EVER

2009-10-28T15:01:00.004+08:00

i figured i am not a tumblr kind of girl...so i'm back <:

100th

2009-10-19T19:25:00.002+08:00

day with adilson <:

coloured lights

2009-10-19T19:04:00.003+08:00

Sleepover at PrisY's was relaxed bbq was filling wanted to wake up at 2am to watch notting hill on hbo but ......failed. laughed till my cheeks hurt+watched movies which made me cry+took shots of almost everything w PrisY's nikon=awesome time with the girls. after rachel and yifan left it was only left with yy prisy and me. we walked around yt point looking for meesiam but found aston's instead.

guess who

2009-10-15T23:57:00.002+08:00

eating frozen b&j’s at 0000hrs with a plastic spoon is a bad idea. i ended up breaking 3 spoons, but that’s fine. beats having to wash a spoon in the middle of the night.

2009-10-15T17:26:00.002+08:00

find me here but watch this space, i may update once in awhile, depending on my indecisiveness.

2009-10-14T01:29:00.005+08:00

i spent my whole afternoon with my favourtie boy today but i didn't feel appreciated at all maybe i shld have given you a little more space. it was good to fall asleep beside you agn though. you were supposed to be studying while i was sleeping but you ended up falling asleep too................i can't help thinking about how much i was looking forward to today 3 days ago.. but i didn't get to

2009-10-12T22:31:00.007+08:00

Daddy please help me take flight from the plight im in now, please resection/realign (or ..whatever works on me) my brain to enable it to hold more information so that flooding will not occur. and please give me all the wisdom to do my biology paper tomorrow, no more f9s cos your love letter to me told me so <: amen

another 12th

2009-10-12T21:26:00.004+08:00

happy third, dilly. i m excited for our 4th crunch into another month <: LOVE U.(♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥)

Dayan

2009-10-11T18:28:00.003+08:00

turn that frown upside down ok i will be open 24/7 ..after 1pm on tuesday <:

2009-10-10T18:55:00.004+08:00

i m not pretty.but i rate people as how i see themmaybe its just nature, yknow?to stare and give comments.i m not smart.i have to sacrifice sleep to finally get a quarter ofacids and bases into my brain.but that's okcos i'll do whatever it takes to be just a littlebetter than average.i m not skinny.but i'd give up eating just to feel skinny for an hour or two.so here's me for you.we are all

happy birthday twin

2009-10-10T11:39:00.004+08:00

love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Space

2009-10-09T18:58:00.001+08:00

could you take me high up so i'd feel just enough lack of ground beneath my feet?

2009-10-06T22:25:00.003+08:00

you're amazingyou're amazingyou're amazingi love you.

my favourite five

2009-10-05T21:18:00.009+08:00

what happened to the six who used to go through everything together i miss you all :( it makes me sad to think about how much we have all drifted so far apart in just 10 short months. what is 10 months compared to 2 years? i can't find anymore reasons to make up for the barrier that has formed between us. maybe we've all changed. but i know, i still love you five all the same.

pretty ugly

2009-10-05T19:15:00.003+08:00

I dislike the person I see before the glass. The thighs that would easily get exposed Behind even the thickest bamboo trees The face that has been clouded by the overlapping Prints made by raindrops that had dried. The overlapping masses of kgs.(how do you see me?)

drowning in gray

2009-10-03T21:39:00.006+08:00

adilson koh, you really suck as a boyfriend now. today i saw a different side of you sometimes i see no point gg on with you anymore and today you decided to hang up on me when you were in the wrong first. that was enough for me to give up on you. i guess i could do without you for a day or two. you can even forget abt talking to me ever altogether.

2009-10-03T11:45:00.004+08:00

you repeatedly, defeated me.

2 g

2009-10-02T20:31:00.001+08:00

i suggest you get a life <:

double-dealing

2009-10-02T20:19:00.009+08:00

september has emptied into october, do you see shadows of fear racing across my face? i am scared. maybe 13 days will pass like lightning. had my tetanus done today, my left arm feels numb now, i like the numbness, i hope it'll stay.

infinity

2009-09-28T22:07:00.000+08:00

seeing you, seeing me.

accelerating

2009-09-27T02:11:00.005+08:00

ordinary before-exam-week saturday. studied my day away. i un-favourited my favourite boy for a while today. i hate being questioned by you like that. -always my favourite boy. (/edited)i need to learn how to walk away, before i run far away.

dead end

2009-09-26T23:40:00.000+08:00

can i count on you?

battlefield

2009-09-25T23:49:00.003+08:00

i need a hug now my head is in a midst of mental turmoil i feel stupid i h8 chemistry can i give up?

Beautiful,

2009-09-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

but never enough for you.

held

2009-09-22T23:02:00.003+08:00

if only you knew how much you mean to me.

✄- - - - - - -

2009-09-19T22:10:00.003+08:00

life can be overwhelming.

Daddy,

2009-09-19T21:49:00.004+08:00

mould me.

hourglass

2009-09-18T20:30:00.003+08:00

i h8 this, aprox.ly 2 more weeks to eoys and 9 subjects to race through. i need red lights. feels like time is draining away very quickly. if only school was an option...... i cant w8 for church tmrw <:

for 17th sept,

2009-09-18T00:21:00.006+08:00

happy 16th sweet♥xo

bubble-wrapped

2009-09-16T20:19:00.002+08:00

thank you Daddy, for all you've given me for watching me fall and picking me up again for the times i doubted for the times i've questioned only to be reflected back with your unconditional love time and time agn. But i'm stuck at crossroads now, Daddy pls tell me what to do.

Oh, hunger

2009-09-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

so emptying, so real, almost pleasurable.

glitter

2009-09-14T23:37:00.003+08:00

He said i shine brighter than the stars in the dark night sky tonight. do you see me? (:

saturday night frenzy

2009-09-13T20:43:00.001+08:00

don't cry

2009-09-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

but i really, can't help crying now.

2009-09-12T10:46:00.001+08:00

chunkfest chunk fest c h u n k f e s t '09

when you try hard enough

2009-09-12T01:15:00.006+08:00

i went to the Arts house to look at the dead sea scrolls today me and prisC were 15 mins early for trng, probably gg to be the first and last time ..or noti stuffed myself with so much food today i think i'll choke on obesity soon enough sucks to have someone click on the ignore button on youi. will. nvr. do. wht. i. did. tdy. ever. agn. (its ok to feel sorry for yourself sometimes) bye.

63 days

2009-09-12T00:41:00.003+08:00

happy 2nd sweetheart ♥ you are my ☀(sunshine) on a ☁☁☁(cloudy) day. i love you <:

picking on sunflower petals

2009-09-10T14:26:00.005+08:00

you want to tell yourself to stay strong but you think of the 100001 reasons why you can't and you muse around the thought of giving up agn.

2009-09-10T14:15:00.008+08:00

LOL @ adilson attempting to do T H E f a c ei miss you :<

lifeline

2009-09-10T13:18:00.001+08:00

even pink pills have decided to give up on me. what else?

bare

2009-09-09T15:54:00.005+08:00

my chest feels empty

2009-09-09T15:49:00.001+08:00

Did i eat today?...i don't even remember.

xx

2009-09-08T09:56:00.005+08:00

♥

2009-09-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

back to square one.

stepping stones

2009-09-06T15:35:00.008+08:00

im all cried out and dried out after two days of arguing with you. it makes me sad to see you trying and failing. hurts even more to have you forget me and hear you say those things and sometimes i just don't know what you want. but i can never make myself stay angry at you for too long cos even though you rly kill me inside sometimes, i still love you. losing you would be like losing the part of

2009-09-04T16:54:00.005+08:00

last night was exhausting read geog notes till my eyes were swimming then finally decided to give up trying to get chapter 9 into my head and went to sleep everytime i try to think abt next week, i feel my mind snap close like a camera shutter isn't holidays supposed to be something to look forward to? ...then why do i find myself dreading it sigh x10000 note to self: stop sighing

2009-09-04T16:53:00.003+08:00

macbook is being unfriendly sigh sigh sigh

press play

2009-09-02T21:27:00.008+08:00

i like to think that life treats me good. the funny thing though, is that life isn't really all that good to me. it likes to put me in the middle of tough decisions, forcing me to choose between them. but there's only so far i can bend, till i break. i've had enough, have you?

2009-08-30T15:46:00.003+08:00

hi stalker, have fun memorizing my blog posts. oh and remember to save a portion of your brain to make up new stories. im getting sick of your old ones. ^^

what happened next

2009-08-30T10:39:00.011+08:00

LOL at the abovethe baking crew <:so much has been happening that i can barely catch up pls give me some time to catch my breath first .......right just kidding. so friday was good. the cupcakes and cookies we baked was goooooood. took so many pictures. after about 4 failed jumpshots we gave up trying. FFFF ytd with the girls was good too. i miss my favourite boy now. how strange is it to be so

limit

2009-08-28T21:45:00.001+08:00

have you had enough?

sink sank sunk

2009-08-27T23:22:00.005+08:00

things i ingested today: • seaweed shaker fries • 1 sardine sandwhich • 1 cup of fruit punch • sour plums(no im not pregnant) • a wave of agitationtoday i had a good time conversing about a certain someone @ macs with prisc rachelle jiaxin and orathai.---dear you, how do you like people making up stories about you to make you look bad? what is it with you telling tales that has only seemed to

+++++++++++ sized

2009-08-24T19:45:00.004+08:00

today, the hunger monster in me was like dna you cannot undo ..and so i gave in to it.

GG, sharon

2009-08-23T23:14:00.000+08:00

sometimes it feels like i have created myself this blackhole, slowly sucking myself into melancholy. it's not worth it most of the time, looking at you thinking to myself when will this end. i like it when there doesn't seem to be any time at all, chasing us with their minute and hour hands, as it completes one full circle, passing every number, marking an hour. i hate it when i try so hard just

2009-08-23T21:39:00.001+08:00

2009-08-22T22:01:00.000+08:00

all's fair in love and war.

fighting cycle

2009-08-20T22:06:00.004+08:00

denying myself food proved that i was stronger. seeing her, i wonder how is it that i can look at her and see skinny but when i see myself ..i see a bloated mess.

compromise

2009-08-17T21:50:00.006+08:00

sometimes, love is about giving a little and receiving.

labels

2009-08-16T22:27:00.003+08:00

rash

2009-08-16T11:29:00.006+08:00

too much disappointmenttoo much upsettoo much confusion,without a mood-adjuster.

the maze

2009-08-15T10:54:00.002+08:00

cartwheel me out of here.

backtracked

2009-08-14T23:04:00.004+08:00

people who made my 7/08 good.

2009-08-12T21:29:00.002+08:00

with all the love in the world, happy 1st sunshine <:

swayed

2009-08-10T22:26:00.001+08:00

who knew life could be such an enigma?

2009-08-10T19:27:00.001+08:00

today, i learned that being skinny comes with a price.

headlock

2009-08-09T16:18:00.003+08:00

past two days have been good, for many reasons. on good days like those, i wish God would make time past just a little slower. but good days dont usually last long.anyway, happy national day y'all.

comment

2009-08-06T21:17:00.002+08:00

the comment button is there for a reason <:

indiffernt

2009-08-05T17:24:00.001+08:00

i plan to eat every carb and fat-laden bite on friday. not going to think about the calories, spare tires and extra kgs going with it. (y)

2009-08-02T20:34:00.002+08:00

first skype session with love <:

hanging high

2009-08-02T14:00:00.001+08:00

im a little lost now

2009-08-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

happy august <:

often hard

2009-07-31T22:38:00.002+08:00

caesar salad and 2 glasses of orange juice for dinner made me feel less fat, for the night. ..self delusion can sometimes be a good thing.

sweet talk 101

2009-07-30T19:52:00.003+08:00

i dont miss you today.

no ego, all heart

2009-07-29T22:15:00.009+08:00

i hope tomorrow doesn't come too soon. too many uncertainties from today kept for tomorrow. i miss my favorite boy.

bliss

2009-07-27T17:50:00.002+08:00

the 20 minute hot water soak in my tub was mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm good, especially after being completely drenched in the rain.

2009-07-27T17:42:00.004+08:00

i forgot when was the last time i actually found a reason to tell you i love you. feels like im just saying it for the sake of saying it now. feels like you are too.

2009-07-26T19:57:00.001+08:00

are you happy now?

an apple for dinner

2009-07-23T23:00:00.006+08:00

i feel so drained now.im tired of having to decipher your thoughts all the time. tired of trying my hardest to understand you but my effort goes unnoticed. tired of making myself not eat so i can feel that 40kg once more. tired of studying so hard but will never be anywhere near the best. just so darn tired and i miss you so much.

2009-07-22T19:22:00.003+08:00

today, we had our first argument since 12/7. i don't like this. i love you so much that sometimes, i just don't know how to show you.

2009-07-19T10:49:00.002+08:00

thinking about my breakfast breaking down into calories inside my body makes me feel like not eating again for the rest of today.

2009-07-14T17:33:00.008+08:00

. .^

one trick pony